At simply 16 years of ages, Lacey Sturm chose she didn’t wish to keep doing life any longer.
“Life was just too heavy, it was just too much for me…I was an atheist who had been through a lot of hurt, and who had been hurt by a lot of people, and was really self-centered and selfish, and all I thought about was my own pain, and I couldn’t get out of it.”
Lacey says that as an atheist, when life gets too tough, there’s truly no need to keep going.
So she prepared to take her own life.
“The day I planned to commit suicide, I came home from school and was having a nervous breakdown, I think, and I remember my grandma looking at me and going…’something’s wrong with you and you have to go to church.’”
Lacey says her grandmother “just knew.” She had not acted any in a different way, and she had not informed anybody about her strategy, however God was currently working. He understood.
She went on to argue with her grandmother about not going to church. Her entire life, she had actually distanced herself up until now far from “happy Christians” who “never have any problems,” due to the fact that she had actually been burned.
“I hated Christians,”Lacey says. “I hated people who talked about Jesus because they always seemed to be pointing their finger at me.” She says it was despiteful speech that pressed her away time and time once again. Hearing things like “God hates you because you do this,” and “If you do this, God’s going to send you to hell.”
My heart breaks, hearing the lies Lacey was outlined not just herself, however about God, by Christians.
We serve a mighty, however mercifulGod He does not dislike anybody. He produced every one people in his image, for His splendor, not for His judgment.
When we sin, it breaks His heart. But no sin, and no quantity of sin might ever separate us from the love of ourSavior He PASSED AWAY to enjoy us, and to conserve us from the embarassment that Lacey therefore numerous others discover themselves bring.
Her grandmother was relentless, and lastly Lacey accepted go being in the church structure as a method to obtain her grandmother off of her back. She completely meant to meet her strategy of dedicating suicide later on that night.
The pastor that night discussed individuals’s discomfort.
“He seemed to describe my whole life, my whole story,”Lacey says. It looked like he was talking straight to me.”
Admittedly weirded out by how particular the preaching was, Lacey was all set to obtain from there. But then, the pastor began weeping. It got her attention.
“Then all of a sudden he says, ‘there’s a suicidal spirit in the room.’”
Lacey says all the hairs stood on her arms, and she began to type of panic. “I’ve got to get out of here, this is weird,” she kept believing.
“He said, “please come up. We want to we want to pray for you because God has a plan for your life. I know that you don’t understand why there’s so much pain in your heart but God made you and he made you to be to be connected with him. He made you so that he could love you and so that you could love him back and experience a life like you’ve never known before in him, just knowing that God is real and that he loves you and he has a plan for your life. Please come up and let us pray for you whoever it is that has that suicidal spirit,’ and he cried.”
Prideful, and went nuts, Lacey made a run for the door. She was not ready to go stand in front of a lot of Christians and bear all her issues.
ButGod was making it hard to leave.
When she reached the door, there was another male standing there and he had actually been weeping. Lacey stated it captured her attention due to the fact that she had actually never ever seen an old male cry prior to.
She took a look at him, and prior to she might take another action, the male stated, “the Lord wants me to speak to you. He knows the pain in your heart. He’s seen you cry yourself to sleep at night and he died to take that pain out of your heart. He experienced it while he was on the cross so you don’t have to keep holding it there anymore.”
Completely in wonder, Lacey simply let him keep talking. He motivated her crazes that he might never ever have actually understood.
“I felt like he loved me,” she says. “A stranger, he really loved me. He said God loves you and that’s why I love you and I want to pray for you.”
Lacey lastly gave up. And as the male put his hand on her shoulder, she says it seemed like the “God of the Universe showed up.”
It was through that prayer, that Lacey’s eyes were opened. She had the ability to see her sin. She had the ability to see that God was best, holy and caring.
Lacey says she felt God cover her in His arms, and he informed her, “I want to make you new.”
That night, she went house and fallinged asleep. Death lost its sting in her encounter with theLord She awakened, a beginner. A saved soul, and a child of the King.
Today, Lacey is a Christian music singer/songwriter. She shares motivations with her fans on the Facebook page, Lacey Sturm–RockPrincessRevelations Check out more of her story listed below: